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Shaking My Head


I guess I had been gone too long for people to read my last post. That’s ok, I don’t mind. Even if no one reads these at least I can get out what I’m thinking and feeling in some way.

Vice presidential debates aren’t usually something that gets a lot of attention. Normally they don’t even affect polls or anything like that substantially. Yet this one caused a stir it seems and has had about as mixed feedback as you can get.

In my humble opinion Biden won. I don’t say this because of interruptions, or anything like that. I say it because I listened to what the candidates were saying. Everything that Ryan had out there Biden was able to correct and get on with the debate. However, though this is in some ways a victory for the Democrats, it’s not without its own losses.

First off, you have the entire right wing screaming at Biden’s behavior. They are unnerved by him laughing at subjects or his hand gestures. They are angry about how he kept interrupting Ryan. I’d like to point out to them that Romney did the same exact thing to Obama last week, but was seen as being a hero for it. Also, I’d like to point out that Biden wasn’t laughing about the issues- he was actually laughing at Ryan. I’m not surprised in the least and I don’t condone unprofessional behavior like that. I think he could have been a little more reserved and had a better impact on the audience for being so. We just need to keep in mind, this is Biden after all and he’s known to be like that.

Fact check: I’m concerned that the fact checking on both sides were equally riddled with lies from both candidates. I mean this sincerely. Even though I’m against the whole Republican platform I’m able to see the fact that both of them last night twisted numbers and statistics at the very least with both of them outright lying about certain issues. To me that really causes the whole thing to be more of a game than anything serious. If it was serious then real facts that would be accurate would be brought to the table. I’m big on the truth and neither of these guys really stood up for the truth in a way that I would have appreciated.

Responses: For some reason the responses I’ve seen from the public are less apathetic towards these two than they were towards the Presidential debate last week. I have no idea why other than it was infinitely more entertaining in a way to watch these guys go at it. The problem here is that this isn’t entertainment, this is supposed to be a tool to use in order to better choose the right candidates for the job at hand. We’ll see how this whole thing gets reflected in the polls probably more early next week.

Overall, I’m still sadened by the lack of clear direction for the Left, the information twisting of both sides and the mud-slinging of all involved before and after such a debate. The only thing I can really say that’s positive was that even the moderator tried to get actual details from Ryan about his plan for the country and was unable to. Though that was a big thing, it’s going to be hidden most likely in the media’s reporting of the debate by Biden’s attitude.


Are you *******ing kidding me?????


I know I’ve been gone for a bit, for that I apologize. Life has been busy- school and other things you know.

So tonight was the first presidential debate in the United States. To say I was disappointed and frustrated with it would be a rather large understatement on my part.

At first glance, Romney won hands down. This bothers me for many reasons. Of course, the first one is that I really can’t stand the guy. Everything he’s done up to this point has been steadfastly against everything I stand for pretty much. He has blatantly stated he’s against all the major social issues I find important- women’s health choices, women’s equality in pretty much any way possible, gay marriage, social safety nets, etc. He’s also been very much on the opposite side of the spectrum of my beliefs in what needs to be done to help this country get back on its feet without us becoming anything like Greece or Spain. I have found his flip-flopping on issues to be annoying at best, and just plain sad. The odd thing was that tonight, on national stage he has flipped on all the major issues again or at the very least has twisted his original positions to resemble something closer to Obama’s platform. The whole while that Romney is doing this Obama is just sitting there looking defensive and quite uncomfortable with the debate in general. (And don’t even get me started on how both of them were exceptionally rude, Romney especially, to the moderator. I mean, really, aren’t we supposed to be professional here?)

Now the reason I have a problem with this is because of the idea that I know that this country sometimes has a really short memory as a whole. In case someone reading this isn’t aware of this phenomenon, I’m referring to the idea that somehow the public at large tends to forget recent history as we move along in time and in the process of going about things. Because of this issue, I’m concerned that the public won’t realize and won’t fact check the idea that Romney is going against what he’s been campaigning as his platform for at least the past few months if not longer. They won’t remember that half of what he’s saying has already been fact checked as being inaccurate anyway when he’s throwing around numbers against Obama’s administration. They’re going to think that Romeny did a good job. Maybe they’ll even think that he’s a better candidate.

The other problem here I’m having was Obama’s response. I can’t leave him blameless for this loss. He just stood there, shaking his head during most of it. Even when I closed my eyes to listen instead of watching (something that helps to see who is really winning in the debate based on what their saying not what you’re seeing) I found that Obama just repeated the same few things as if he had been caught off guard whereas Romney sadly had a series of varied answers ready at his disposal. Obama was just awkward, defensive, and quite frankly weak. This isn’t the same Obama as an orator that I remember supporting. This sort of perception is going to be remembered. After all, as Americans, we tend to remember the negative better than we remember the positive.

The other thing that bothers me is the people who haven’t watched and won’t watch the debate at all. What they’re going to see is a ton of headlines in the morning declaring Romney as the winner. What effect this will have on the polls and public opinion I’m not sure, but I’m fairly certain it’s not going to be good for Obama. The thing is that these people who rely on these headlines won’t even look up what was really said and how during the debate. They won’t know that Romney flipped on most of his issues, that Obama looked just plain annoyed with the whole thing or that the poor moderator was walked all over by both parties involved as if he wasn’t there half the time. What’s more important is that they won’t have any idea at how many lies were thrown around by either candidate and they won’t be interested in checking anywhere for that information either.

Now one thing I would like to mention is this: I wouldn’t be up after midnight writing this if the content of the debate was the only thing bothering me right now. No, there are other issues at hand concerning this that caught my attention tonight.

See, I like debate, I like paying attention to what goes on in this country and then discussing it with other people to see how they think, how they feel, and how they see things. It helps to get a better grip on what’s going on. What I got tonight though from people wasn’t good at all. It’s not that I found tons of people supporting Romney after all this, though that would have been bad it’s not as bad as what I found.


Yes, I found lots, and LOTS of apathy. It’s a disease of the public, this lack of caring. It causes people to just shrug and say “well, it doesn’t matter” or “My vote won’t change anything.”

This is the most frightening thing of all because it means that people aren’t paying attention. They don’t realize that this presidential election is going to be responsible for a good number of supreme court justices being appointed. It’s going to decide where our country moves to in the next 4 years and how. It’s going to decide the future for us, our children and even possibly our children’s children.

Right now our country, our world, stands on the brink of something large. It’s bigger than any one of us and it’s going to affect ALL of us. Climate change is upon us, economic shifting is happening, in some countries we’re one step away from violent wars, in others that’s already happening. In Europe and in the Arab Nations there is revolution happening at an alarming rate. People there want change now- they’re seeing the need for it and they’re reaching out for it in unison against their governments and against the status quo. Where is that movement here? We started one, if you recall, about a year ago. It was huge, this Occupy Wallstreet movement. Where is it now? They, the government and local law enforcement teams, have learned how to handle it and so have quieted the whole thing. I know because I’ve been documenting it here in my own town and have found records and reports all over the country about similar issues occurring with it. It has caused a new wave of apathy to wash over the youth, the middle-aged and everyone here in this country. Our movement failed, horribly. Sure there are still pockets trying, and I give them kudos for doing so, but overall it’s done and gone I think.

So what now?

I don’t know, but I’m honestly scared shitless right now. My apologies for the foul language, but it’s true and it’s probably one of the only ways I know how to express that sentiment adequately for what I’m feeling. I’m still trying in my own way to get people organized and get them to be more aware and willing to participate in their own government. Voting and protesting are the ways to go for this. I plan on doing both whenever I can. In the meantime, I’m screaming inside with frustration, fear and a sense of hopelessness tinted with hope. Contradictory? Perhaps, but it’s what I have right now.

Great… Just great…


So I try really hard not to write about personal stuffs on here. I don’t like putting my personal life out there. However, I don’t have anyone to talk to and the one person I would talk to I would rather just not add to his stress level right now. So here it goes. And my apologies ahead of time.

A little history on the issue: I’m currently in college. As a 31-year old woman I should have had this all done and over with years ago but back then I was young and quite stupid about life. I didn’t know what I would be good at, and honestly didn’t think any so-called talent of mine was worth the investment of money and time that college entails. It wasn’t until a few years ago that I met a very kind, gentle, loving young man who was completely fascinated by my artwork. Turns out he’s the man of my dreams and became my husband. Before that happy bit happened though, he threw me (practically literally) into college. The idea was to go to school for art and do something with it.

So I’ve spent my time, money and energy creating art, learning art, eating, breathing and even dreaming art. After getting my associate’s degree, and really right before completing it, I decided that an associate’s wasn’t enough. It wouldn’t get me a job or anything that would make such an investment worthwhile. This is where I started thinking about what I could do instead. I ended up going for animation, transferring to a true art school (as opposed to the community college that I started at) and have been working on that since. I’m going to be a Senior next year, working on my thesis and finishing my B.F.A. However, there has been one major thing missing- internships. To truly end up successful in this kind of a field one needs to have internships on their resume. Without it, no company will take a recent graduate artist seriously when applying for a job. Since I have no experience with 3-D animation yet, or even digital animation of a 2-D nature I had to find a place that would work with traditional, hand-drawn projects. I found one and only one. The excitement built in my heart for over a semester at the idea of having everything fall into place…

Well, instead of falling into place, it has started falling apart. The internship that I need so desperately in order to compete more effectively in a job market being strangled by budget cuts wasn’t posted until the last week of classes this semester. As a summer internship it should have been posted before summer school registration was done. In fact, everyone at the school was trying to get this guy to do exactly that so the students could schedule their classes around it. Now I had to schedule summer classes without knowing what his hours would be- I really had no other choice. Since he finally posted his job offer, it has been announced that he requires the students to work 9-5 which will be hard for any of them to do while balancing summer courses. This is especially true since his studio is about 45 minutes away from where our school is, not to mention where any of us live. The other students probably have other options available and aren’t stressing about this so much. However, I don’t have that luxury. I can’t just drop the classes I have registered for- One is a class that has never been offered there and would bee far too useful and the other is a required course that I just don’t see being able to balance along with 5 other classes and thesis at the same time. (It’s a community service learning course that requires additional time outside of class working with different charities.) I can’t bring myself to even apply to this intern position because I simply can’t meet the scheduling requirement for the job. It would be a waste of my time and of the man who posted the position if I did, thus making me seem that much more unprofessional in the process.

I know this must sound like I’m whining and all, but it concerns me a great deal. My husband is now looking to me to be the successful one since his career as a music teacher was cut short thanks to budget cuts in schools. This whole thing just makes it that much more difficult to do this.

Also please understand it’s not like I haven’t tried for other places in the area. It’s just that the other places are all 3-D based and as such have turned me down. I’m simply at a loss…

So, if anyone knows of a place that is around the Milwaukee area that does animation and would be willing to have a part time, 2-D specialist as an intern, please let me know. I’m a fair hand at video and sound editing- just in case that helps.

Thanks for listening/reading. Sorry for whining.

Something Worthwhile


The above link goes to a quick film where some very supportive guys project a message to the Occupy Movement members as they’re marching. It’s an amazing video with a great message.

I have a question about this though:

Where did this go? Where did the movement go?

I know it’s still there. It has to be. What I want to know is why isn’t it bigger? Why isn’t it still on the news? Do people think it’s just not important. Did the “1%” win in the idea of defacing this movement so much that people aren’t paying attention? What happened?

I know here in town there was a movement, but it has degraded to only working every once in a while. There is no occupy, not really. There is a sad, tiny camp in an equally sad and tiny park located in an area where it’s making a sad and tiny difference. I have been there, spoken to the inhabitants and what I learned angered me.

I don’t live in a small town. I live in one of, if not the largest city in Wisconsin. It’s no Chicago, I know that. However, this place is big enough with enough people in it that this whole movement should have been bigger here. It’s larger in smaller towns than it is here across the nation.

I also don’t understand why people simply shut down the idea of protests. I read a few comments in response to this video that specifically told folks to stop protesting. Seriously? Should we not protest to having our freedoms taken away, our education system ruined, our healthcare ruined, and the corruption in the government existing as it does? Should we just bend over and take it up the *** every time the richest 1% say to? Should we respond with “How high?” when they say “Jump!”? I don’t think so!

I know I write a lot about politics and I’m sure at some point it must annoy those who read it. Maybe at some point they think “Why can’t this lady get a life and a new subject?” Well, I’ll tell you why. I won’t get a new subject until things change enough that I don’t have to write about this anymore in order to release any semblance of the pent up frustration I have over this country’s direction. And to those who will comment along the lines of  “if you hate your country so much, leave”: I don’t hate this country. In fact, I love it. That’s why I’m so frustrated and so angry. I know we can be better, should be better.

You know it’s bad when one of the better moderates in the Senate decides she’s not going to run again. It wasn’t because she couldn’t win; she could have. It was because she didn’t feel like she could make a difference in a gridlocked congress like what we have. As sad as it is, I don’t blame her in a way. I do wish she could stay to be one of the voices of relative reason within the Senate as that’s so obviously needed. Look up Olympia Snowe of Maine. You’ll see what I mean.

With all the changes taking place, shouldn’t we the people make sure our voices are heard? Obviously there are some in office that don’t want to listen. I realize that. The whole fiasco about contraception and the hearing on it with only men and no women comes to mind as being one of the most blatant examples of this. If writing in, signing petitions, and calling don’t help, then what will? I have been doing these things for years. The best return I’ve gotten have all been form letters that don’t even address whatever issue I was writing about to begin with or a response from the people with the petition asking for money. No, these things haven’t really been helping- at least no where near what I would like to have happen.

So what’s the next step? Where do we go from here?

If you know, I mean 100% know, then you’re doing better than all of us.

Political discussions


Warning: I may have a few of these… or more… And you may not like them.

Warning #2: I may not care if you don’t like them. Of course, I mean that in the most kind, loving, and uplifting way possible.

Today I was talking to one of my classmates and we were discussing politics. She didn’t really identify herself as any particular party and expressed her disdain for the concept of party based politics. I didn’t disagree with any of the above, or really most of what we discussed. It did however cause me to think about what’s going on and how we, as a country, might be able to change it.

Take the idea of party politics. What would happen if we took the parties out of it? What if you had to have representatives that spoke for themselves instead of following basic party guidelines? Would that make it better, or would it make it easier for someone to lie to the public about what they’re going after and what they’re intentions are? I’m not sure which is the correct answer to be honest. I do know that the current standpoint of how politics works isn’t really working at all.

How to get the money out of politics? That’s the next issue we talked about. There seems to be an over-abundance of people who go into politics for the money, not really to change the country in beneficial ways. This worries me. The idea of public service, which any elected office is supposed to be, is based around the concept of serving the public. You would think such a thing would be self explanatory. However, it seems that the public service part of politics has left the building completely, perhaps never to return. I don’t have an answer to how to fix this, but I do have a few ideas. My favorite of these is to pay them the same as the average teacher, or a fixed rate that is under a certain amount. They can’t vote to raise their own pay. Only the public can vote to raise a politician’s pay and it’s based on how effective they are at their job. Perhaps if there wasn’t so much money to be gained from it these people who go for this kind of work would actually go because they want to help people, not because they’re greedy. One could hope.

Another thing: What is with these candidates that want to control women’s bodies and our choices about them? Are we trying to go back to the 1940’s or something here? Didn’t we work as a whole to get rid of the idea that a woman can’t decide for herself what is right for her own body and her life? I can’t begin to describe the seething anger I get every time I hear some dim-witted politician try to take away things like contraceptives or abortion. Don’t get me wrong, I understand that some people’s beliefs say that they can’t use these things. That’s fine. Believe what you will and act upon that accordingly, but only do so for your own life. You, and I, don’t have any control over anyone else. If someone wants to get an abortion, at least make it legal so that it’s safe for her to do so. If someone needs/wants to have contraceptives, that’s fine. In fact, the more you promote the contraceptives, the less you will have to fight the idea of an abortion because the less likely it is that it will be “needed”. Also, what’s this thing of trying to teach children again only abstinence instead of the whole story? Are you kidding me? That’s not going to stop them, they’re teens. They have urges and they WILL take care of them, whether you like it or not. It would be better to tell them that abstinence is best, but also to educate them on all the options available. That way you’re less likely to get any surprises from them. It’s logic people. You can’t turn back time to the “wholesome” ages of the past. All you can do is move forward and try to make it better, make it stronger, more intelligent, and by all means make it more compassionate. I mean, seriously, the lack of compassion I’m seeing by corporations, and people in general is really getting to me sometimes. I keep reading things where some poor sap has to try to refinance his mortgage and the bank gives this poor sap the run around until they can finally “legally” foreclose on his home and kick him and his family out. Never mind the fact that they paid faithfully and on time for like 10 years or so. Never mind the fact that he tried to go through your own red tape to get the process that he QUALIFIED for in order to lower the payments into something he could afford at the time. Never mind the fact that maybe now he has a job that pays enough that he could even pay the full payments that was due anyway and catch up. No, you greedy ass banks have to take his him, his life, his security and investment from him. There’s no heart, no feeling, nothing but trying to do “business”. If this is business, count me out.

Ok, so that was a bit of a run-on paragraph, but yeah. There are rants. They occur. And trust me when I say there are more. It just so happens that I have to go to class and can’t write more at the moment. So… Until next time folks that read my stuff, have a great day and please remember to be kind to someone today. I guarantee you that there is someone out there that needs it that’s not so far from you as you might think they are.



~Awakened Aquarius~